need to let it out

I know it has been a long, long time, but I really needed to vent so here I am.  Our house is on the market.  The kids are recovering from a lengthy bout of illness.  I’m trying to NOT get sick.  I hate my clean house. 

It’s a weird and rough buyer’s market here and honestly, I don’t think we’re going to get any offers.  Perhaps next spring, but not right now.  It’s freaking cold and we have to finish up MORE sod this Saturday.  I love the new sod – so pretty and bright, but being out in this cold is going to suck.  I did confirm that it’s not too cold to install it.  yay.

I just need a break from it all.  A real break, too.  Not the frantic “make everything look perfect” and then get the hell out so the house can be shown break.  I really need to get away from it all.  I need my kids to be healthy.  I need to be healthy.  I need a break from demands both at home and at work.

But no.  It’s not going to happen.  People will keep nattering at me. 

I promise I’ll take it all in stride but right now – here – tonight – I’ve had it.