Still waiting on word about the lateral transfer within our department. Joined the Biggest Loser competition in our office and so far I’m on track to losing at a consistent rate.
Then tonight I read my old blogs from 2009 and got depressed. I’ve tried this a few times over the last couple of years (the weight loss, not the lateral transfer).
I’m torn about this. I can’t give in to the pessimism, yet I feel worried that I’ll end up giving up. Augh. Positive visualization says to imagine my success and I’ll get there. Now I’ve done this before and been successful. Sadly, I had to be REALLY selfish during that 10 month time-period when I lost 48 lbs. I can’t do that again. Can I do something different? I hope so. My kids need me to be healthy. My job needs it. I need it. I can’t live on Prilosec forever!
I’m not patient, am I?
Well that’s it. Can’t think about this anymore.