I have some things that I need to do but my brain is zapped and my body is wiped out. It’s 9pm and I finally got dinner about 10 minutes ago. It seems like this was an endless day and I suppose that’s ok, but I could seriously use about 12 hours of sleep.
I am learning a lot at work. If I stop to consider it for a moment, it sinks in how little I know and how far I have to go. I seriously hope I’m worth all the work for them. I like the people there – a lot. We all seem to feel the same way about the combination of talents it takes to be successful there and it gives me some peace.
I will have to find my own sense of resolution about the situation with the hiring. I dislike the sense that I am starting off on the wrong foot because of this (with people other than my boss and peers), but I also have to believe that those in charge know what they are doing.
Tomorrow is a new day to keep working hard and trying to absorb as much as is possible. Some is familiar. Some is bordering on familiar and some is alien to me. I will need to learn the locations of things, the terminology and the patterns of the office. I’m good with all of this. It’s a challenge, but it’s do-able.
The most difficult part is sitting and listening, rather than doing. I understand this is a part of the process, so I can hang in there but it is truly exhausting.
Normally I’m completely impatient. This time there is nothing to be impatient about. I have to go through these stages in order to do what I’m needed to do. So that’s how it will go.
Now it’s time for a warm, soothing bath and a good night’s sleep. There is nothing more I can do for today. I can only imagine what tomorrow will bring. I have a good measure of confidence in how this will all come out. And that’s all the energy I have left for now.
happy 41st birthday to me and thanks to all my friends and family for the well wishes… it has been a good day,