Almost 2 hours. I got tired in the middle of it and just wanted to get up and leave, which, technically speaking… I can do, since I’m at my house. But I ground through it. It was easier than the midterm. It had this system of depreciation on it that seems to be very hokey, but I worked through it.
I left one piece not quite finished. I got to the point where the headache showed up again and I decided to end my suffering. I did 90% of that question though and it’s the only one that I didn’t completely finish.
I read something interesting yesterday. It said if you have friends at work, you’re more likely to have a positive experience. I have one person at work that I consider a friend and another I’d consider a friend if we had the time to be friends with each other, but nothing like I had at the university. They were family.
I miss that.
I wonder if that’s why I feel kind of disconnected at work?
I work with good people. We all work very hard. But do I feel safe there? No. Do I feel like I’ve settled in?
I looked at the title of one of our books yesterday and it hits me today that I relate… I haven’t read it in a while, but maybe I’ll pull it off the shelf and dust if off. “Stranger in a Strange Land.”
The fact is that I feel a sense of loneliness creeping up on me. Being sick has made it into a deeply felt thing, so I take my current feelings with a grain of salt… but they are still there.
I miss the people I used to work with, even as I don’t miss my old job (what job…)…..
There is a position open at the university – at the level I worked in before I left for my new job. Do I run back, tail between my legs, to the type of job I know – in an environment that I understand?
I miss my friends. Seems like it’s time for a visit.